'I'm sorry for raping you

A father accused of rape sent a stream of apologetic messages to his alleged victim, telling her: 'I wanted you to say no one more time', a court has heard.

Ryan Falconer, 24, told the woman he had 'f****** up' after she sent him a Whatsapp message accusing him of rape and threatening to report him to the police. 

The court heard how the father-of-one sent the woman a sad face and said he 'felt bad' before telling her to 'focus on the good' and begging her not to go to police.

He told the woman: 'I'm sorry! I wanted you to say no one more time then it would have stopped. I've f***** up!'

When he then tried to suggest the pair 'touched each other', the woman replied: 'Don't even f****** dare blame me', the court was told. 

Prosecutor Jonathan Sharp told the court that the exchange of messages was a 'clear and comprehensive admission' and that the complainant was  'deeply, deeply upset' by what happened. 

Falconer, from Bradford, denies one count of rape. 

Bradford Crown Court was told how the pair had met a few years previously.

Despite Falconer being in a relationship, the pair had struck up a friendship and the court was told he would often send the woman suggestive messages.

Although she sometimes engaged in the flirting, she would fob him off most of the time, the court heard. 

The young woman, who lived at home with her parents, invited Falconer to her home on the evening of Saturday May 16, last year.

The jury heard he arrived at around 8.45pm and the pair went to her bedroom.

It was there that Falconer allegedly raped the woman, after pulling her on top of him, even though she kept saying no, the court heard.

He also tried to orally rape her while they were watching TV, the court was told. 

The woman told the court that Falconer had said: 'You can do it, you know you want to,' while she kept saying: 'No, I don't want to. Stop. Get off me.'

Mr Sharp told jurors: 'She made it perfectly clear that she did not want it to happen.'

The court was told how the woman asked Falconer to leave at about 10pm. She then googled 'I think I have just been raped' and 'was I raped' because she was confused about what had happened.

She told jurors she hadn't been screaming or crying during her ordeal as you usually see in rape cases.

When asked by Judge Jonathan Rose why she did not scream, she replied: 'Because I just froze. I kept saying no. And you don't want your parents to see you getting raped.' 

The woman went to the police two days later and Falconer was arrested and interviewed.

He told investigating officers she consented and did not tell him to stop at any stage.

The trial continues.

'I'M SORRY, DON'T WANT OUR FRIENDSHIP RUINED': WHAT FATHER ACCUSED OF RAPE TOLD HIS ALLEGED VICTIM

The court was read an exchange between Falconer and the alleged victim: 

Complainant: U don't understand how upset I am.

Falconer: Me too :/ I'm sorry, don't want our friendship ruined.

C: I told you I didn't/couldn't do it and you did it anyway.

F: I'm sorry;( I Feel bad

C: Do you know what I did when I went to the toilet? I actually cried.

F: I'm sorry, you don't know how much I wish it didn't happen :'(

C: I said no

F: I'm sorry! I wanted you to say no one more time then it would have stopped. I've f***** up! I've f***** up my home life, f***** up my friendship with you and now I'm walking round pissed too god nos where. Right now I really wish was dead :(

C: I said no countless times Ryan. You have no idea.

F: I'm sorry, can't say it enough, I don't deserve your friendship. I'm sorry f***** up.

C: I can't cope Ryan really can't

This is just about to push me over the edge.

F: Me neither :/ please don't. Come tomorrow focus on the good you've got. If you need me outa your life completely I understand :'(

C: Focus of the good? It's like I've just been raped Ryan.

F: Raped at 20? Yeah everythings f****** good.

Sorry :(

I'm sat outside some place in f***** tears, I've never wanted too die so much in my life. I've f***** up.

What do you want me to say?

C: I'm sat here crying my f****** eyes out.

F: Me too :/ don't know what else too say.

C: At this moment I have no sympathy, I feel like going to the police.

F: Police

I'm so sorry, I miss read the signs and should of listened. Please don't have me lose my son :'(

C: What signs? I said no I can't do this.

I'm sorry but you should have thought about that before you raped me.

F: And I can't lose my son! And we touched each other. 

C: Excuse f****** me!!!!!!!!! You was touching me and I kept saying no u pushed my head down don't even f**king dare blame me.

You've just made in 10x worse! Thank you

F: Just please don't have me lose my son, I'm begging you.

C: I can't even speak to you, I just need to be alone.

F: Ok, sorry for everything

C: If you drop a glass and it smashes can you say sorry to it and it fixes bach together again.

F: No you can't

C: No so you can't do that with me either

I need to think about what I'm going to do so I'm off.

F: Ok, just want too say without trying to use this as a guilt trip on you. If our friendship is over then that's my f*** up, will tell [boy's name]'s mum what I did without putting you in harm, if she kicks me out, that's my f*** up. But I just can't lose my son, he's my everything and I need him so much.

C: Goodbye

Either way you'll lose him tbh if you tell her she won't let you see him